A Walk of Dignity! - Inspitale

A Walk of Dignity! - Inspitale: 8:30 a.m. sharp, I leave my hostel and start walking down the lane to reach the metro station. A lane which is sometimes too clumsy in rain because of which one has to hop, to cross the pool or sometimes …

Fidus Achates !

23 years of a journey! And still hustling and bustling with new roads.....

But few of them around me are still staunch. Don't know how my life would be without them. For the first time on my blog, I wish to write for all my peas who carry a ray of sunshine which makes me grow more. Just reviving the days we met and never thought to be so close the way we are today.

This is 2019, let's flip some pages and go back to the year 2014. School life just ended and with a bag of lessons and memories, I started my graduation. Mum says now my kiddo is going to be a college chick! Can't get over her sarcasm but yeah life had to bring something for me.

10:45 a.m., I was sitting in a park because my college welcomed me with strike and no classes till July! Thoughts were running in my head and, there I was sitting with a girl who was struggling to cope up with my talks. Then here comes a slender girl with a pony tied up, quiet as if she was standing in the desert. Well! I just waved my hand to her and asked her name. She replied, " Hi! Seema here" and then again I continued further with all my rubbish in my mouth. I was pretty sure, the way she looked at me while I was talking, she had thoughts of throwing me into an asylum.

I really did not think that day, that I met my soul-sister. From going classes together to all the fun rides on my scooty, from fighting with your ex to protect you, to giving shitty management tests together and knowing well that we did not cross even one, it just went off!

This is Seema - sister from another mum! Sexy and beautiful always.

Next comes a girl specs on her eyes and holding books in her hand. The studious Sanskriti Sinha!

While I and Seema were sitting in the class, there was a girl on the very first bench continuously writing notes in her copy. You just have to ask what the lecturer told 2.05 seconds ago, she can accurately tell you word by word, scribbled every bit in the book. Honestly, I felt this girl was too much kiddo by nature and will never do anything exciting in her life but Naah... I just spoiled her too...

From, she going slow on her scooty because "Precaution is better than cure" to running towards me today whenever she meets me, this eventually not so immature girl is way far mature we thought. Did I ever told you that, that day when I was all shook and crying and you sitting back on those stairs said," Bhavya! you are not meant for that" Those words brought a new hope in my life. Just forgot to say, "Thank You!"

So, there is always one person in your whole group, who is beautiful as fuck and gives solid competition to all models. Well! Even I had one! Yes perfectly figured! Not less than heroin but a baby in her thoughts. Where everybody till today asks me, "Is she single?" I there was freaking her out to talk. Sitting opposite to me in the examination hall, I was pleading this girl," Ayushi say Hi!" and like cute baby smile and struggling to speak she use to say "Hi! Bhavya" 

This is Now Ayushi Rajeev Singh! Yup married now!

From asking me the differences between smooch and lip locks to sitting back at my scooty and teasing all boys around, this girl is no more a baby and devil in her thoughts. My Fighter - Ayushi!

Yes! This is my Soul-Sisters gang without whom I was just a lonely person walking all alone. While I had this wonderful cake, the cherry was been missed. God had to send someone who could tell me every day, "Babes, I am there for you". This guy has a special appearance in my life. The way we get an intermission in a film and the climax begins, here comes the climax of my life - Shivam Goel!

I still don't understand why we met on such social media which even people did not know to use. Yes!  I met this boy on Google + 

I still remember that day while I tried reaching out Seema for help, I was not able to connect with her. All in all, I decided that day let's finish this not so calm life. While I scrolled one last time on this account, I just got stuck on this long nose. The boy from Delhi, perplexed me so much with his pictures, that I just wiped out my tears and texted him. I still don't understand why this happened. Guess what! Within a few seconds, I even got a reply, " Hi Shivam here"

And at the same moment, we exchanged our WhatsApp numbers too and it was not even him who asked for. It was me who asked for the number. Instead of asking who he was, I just randomly asked him a creepy question and he without judging me replied. 4 hours before, I was about to stop my life and this man from nowhere, not even sitting beside me, saved my life!

From this one small conversation to now endless chat. The person who said, " I never believed in Bff concept" to calling me as his bestie; From making random chats to now getting worried if one does not reply in an hour; I got my sunshine! My cherry in the cake - Mr. Shivam Goel.

These four people just pushed me so much that today wherever I am, is because of their love and affection for me. Life was now beautiful. But it had to be more beautiful and mature with one more action player.

This long man who did not even know how to say Hi to a girl; had to come into my life and let me know that what I think about myself was not the reality. He always says," You are beautiful in your own way". The last piece of my puzzle - Nadeem Sayed!

Where all my friends were struggling in their careers; even I was stretching myself out. Tired, pissed off and lost all faith, this guy just said me one thing, "I am sure about you; you will make it". Finally, that happened. From watching the constellations together to he crying happily on my placement. I got you. I still feel guilty about some of the reactions and decisions that I did in front of you but you still love me in the same manner, the way it was always.

Thanks! It's a really small word for you people but I promise I can do everything for you what you want. I promise to be loyal to you and love you always. Just stay with me the way we are today.

Thanks -

Seema,

Sanskriti,

Ayushi,

Shivam, and

Nadeem

Love You Always! 

A Journey For Realization

I was traveling with him on a bus. He always has ears plugged with music to avoid all the negative vibes around him. I was looking out of the window pane and felt the fresh aerate in me. Wonderful weather to spend time with him. It's not usual for me to move out with him in such romantic weather. When your man is a kind of dullsville, it's quite a tedious task to move him out from his monotonous nature and bring him to your ivory towers. But the way such kind of men loves is more idyllic than any romanticists. The reason why I love him the most. 

So, we planned out to explore biennale nearby. Since we were traveling on a bus, approximately one hour, it took to reach there. Suddenly while watching the beauty outside my window, I looked at my man. Instead of enjoying the music, I saw him playing with a baby who was two seats ahead of ours. Right seating with me, I saw my man teasing him with his tongue and exactly two seats ahead, the baby who was wrapped in his father's arms and looking at us was imitating my love. Both were teasing each other in their own manner. The cutest thing I enjoyed was this scenario happening. I said to my love," You are teaching him wrong gestures." He said, "Its fine!" and continued playing with him. I just whispered in his ears," I am pretty sure that when you will have kids, you will teach them all these bad things". He replied," I will teach them PUBG". 

This actually screwed me up and I said," Really you are waiting to teach them PUBG." He said with a smile, "Obviously!" While these two were passing their times with each other, the bus was about to stop at its next stand. The father asked his wife to hold the baby till the time he takes his luggage and stood up.  I saw the kid was craving back to go to his father. The bus stopped and the father went down while the mother and kid were on their seat. The kid looked out at the window and was crying to go to his father and the father standing out was smiling and waving his hand. The bus left the stop, while I could see the baby seeing outside the window to have even the last glimpse of his father. The baby cried but his mother was there to console him and make him smile.

A thought or rather I say a fear came into my mind that moment. The deep-rooted trepidation of getting separated from my man after 20 days chocked me. There was just one question in my head revolving, this kid had his mother but to whom I will tell my feelings of being away from my love. The decision to be in a relationship with him was taken by us but due to cultural issues and our families not accepting us, we have to separate; We were not able to digest this reality. 

He saw my teary eyes, held my hand and said," Quite! Let's be together now and make the best of every second of our time" I controlled myself and looked out again.

I never felt how good time passes so early but now I can see. I will be always having this guilt of being away from such a wonderful man. Relationships should be handled pragmatically but emotions can never be left behind. The secret of happiness is to be with the right person and so I was. But one more thing is also important to hold this happiness is the stability of being with that person. No matter wherever he goes my love will always surround him but my presence won't. I will always love him but will make sure that in my next birth I don't give him the pain of separation.

My Love For You Is Eternal!

Love You!

After a long time

Its been a couple of months. Right? People who loved to read my blogs were asking me that why I have stopped writing them. But do you know what, when it comes to me, I require those words which are close to my heart in order to pen down them. My thoughts are not random or one can say kind of imago. Writing anything has to be an exploration and so there I was in those days exploring my love and my days with him.

So what do you think today, from where I will start off? Would it be like making up the lost time or a new start?

So let's start from the time, I thought of to distance from him. Don't be shocked! There comes a time in your life where you feel that it's better to be away from your loved ones otherwise you might turn out a thorn in their lives. 

It was that evening sitting beside him and looking up towards the stars. We two together use to explore the little angels turned out to be the stars in that sky or that special star with whom we were connected to. After losing someone special you always find them in those shiny heavenly bodies. I always get chocked when I think about my loved one who are not with me and here comes my man who always says that dear they are at the most secure place, smiling at me. I always felt that people whom I loved the most are not with me because it was me who has always been a jinx in their lives. The moment I enter in their mortal, they become the dark angels. But there was someone who never felt so. 

The man who loves me to his infinity believes that I am the most wonderful effervescence one can experience. That night I said to him, "To leave me. I am a mistake in his life." He replied, "True I did a mistake in my life. I shouldn't love a person of a different religion. It's a presage! My God will definitely punish me."

There I was weepy and was cursing me deep inside. I stood up and said, "I am sorry! I never wanted that you should be punished by God for this relationship. I really don't want that a single scratch should come on you because of me. We have time to rectify this. Better you leave me"

He was sitting there and gave a sigh for a minute and said, "Whatever happened I can't change it. I have to answer that supreme power for whatever time I had been with you. But the mistake I committed with you, I don't want to rectify it."

I looked at him with those misty eyes.

He said, "You have no clue this mistake gives me the most delightful commiseration. Every morning holding those hands and having breakfast. Cuddling with the cutest panda on this planet. Looking into those eyes who believe me the most and being with my strongest pillar of my life after my mother is the best happening that one can feel."

"And you say to stop this. Well, I don't allow you to stop anything that is so beautiful in my life. If you really want something to stop. Then do one thing ask my tummy to stop being a balloon; if you can do so truly I will be grateful to you and when it comes dealing with the supremacy, I will look to it."

He made me sit again and kissed my forehead and said, "I would love  continuing to commit this mistake every day."

The Broken Chains...........

"She couldn't stop thinking about her friends

They were just so broken and forgotten in nature, now with her

But she still could not forgive them

She nosedived like melancholy pens

Her mind turned into a cotton

She couldn't stop thinking about her friends

But she still could not forgive them"

Where the whole world today was cherishing their friendship moments, there was one girl sitting back on her cot and was thinking about her splintered friendships. She swam a journey from where her friends who were strangers at the very beginning; later on turned out to be a family and now were back as unconversant paisans. 

She asked once to her mother, "Ma, what's that one super power that God has given to me?" Her mother replied,"God has the supreme power to decide your whole journey. He is going to choose that who are going to be your parents, brother, sisters, uncle, aunt,soulmate, life partner." She said,"Everything God has decided, then what's left for me?" Mother replied,"Your Friends!". The divine being there give us the opportunity to choose our own friends.

While thinking of this conversation, she asked to her soul,"Do I not possess that power?" The inner me replied,"You do!".She asked again,"Then what's that one thing that is hindering in me?" The inner soul replied,"You don't possess the power of retaining your friends!" She remained quiet and understood the facts.

While this girl who was upset about all this, I gave thought to what has happened to her journey. It happens at times that you unknowingly hurt people. Probably their feelings too. But what if you came to know about your mistake and still continue to do the same? Here comes the time to catechize yourself. It's not all about staying together, it's all about how you make feel others. You will come across in your life where many relationships stop for a while. There is no conversation and no connection but whenever they meet back, it's all the same. Many friendships break because of this ignorance which are too oblivious.

If you have realized today, don't prolong things anymore. You never know what you loose very soon. I wish this girl all the very best in her life and I wish you too the same. The journey is still too long. Don't make it monotonous. It's your bosom buddies who help you create great memories. Call back once again whom you left somewhere in the journey and built those strong bonds that one says,

Whose Strong Bonds is that? I think I know.

Its owner is quite happy though.

Full of joy like a vivid rainbow,

I watch her laugh. I cry hello.

She gives her Strong Bonds a shake,

And laughs until her belly aches.

The only other sound's the break,

Of distant waves and birds awake.

The Strong Bonds is Blossom, Strong and deep,

But she has promises to keep

Her Bonds - Her Friends.....................................

Happy Friendship Day To All!!!!!!!!!!

The Urge For Spending 24 Hours Together

To My Love,

I wish that right now, I can hug you tightly. Kiss you thousand times.

Cuddle with you Love you a lot to all my extent. The graph which you made for me, I am following the same. 

I wish that soon we'll meet and create some really wonderful moments.

From your "Chuzii"

This letter I wrote two months ago for him. Deep inside was not happy to stay without him. I always felt that this hankering will soon lead me into disaster. Finally after couple of months we met. I guess that was the second time happened that in the night when he was standing infront of me, I looked into his eyes the same way when for the first time I proposed him. We were left from now onwards for next eight months. I had promised that these eight months would be real special one. I won't loose him any day. But I guess our journey to stay apart from now forth had already begun. His responsibilities and priorities were changed. It was never like that I was not interested in supporting him in his work but still my urge to spend just 24 hours with him was not stopped.

 Eight months and things are going to change. Deep inside, I am dying everyday. I have really small dreams to get fulfilled with him. I want to cook for him; make him feel comfortable, take care of him. Just want to have a cup of coffee at 3 a.m. and long conversations. I want to take care of his family. Make him feel secure. Enjoy the rain with him. Just want to sit back with a pizza and watch web series with him. While he is sleeping, want to see that peace on his face. I guess this is going to merely take place. Sometimes I feel that all this will make him uncomfortable or I am being completely kiddish still is it wrong to desire for the same.

I really have no idea that either this is being clingy or extreme longings but I was pious about my love for him. I fail him in making this understand. I become fragile in sharing his work but at the end it's just the 24 hours that I wish no one comes between us yet I feel like things are going to remain the same. I understand compromises, commitments yet is it wrong to desire for fruitful time with someone.     

I always want to say this to him that whatever minute or second spend with him is my favourite time. We won't remember the gifts, toys, flowers bought but the quality time we share is not only enough but also the cherished time period. He has been the most beautiful thing happened in my life. Reason why my longings desire for more. To all who hear my voice, make your moments the best one. Time is really short to snatch happy moments. Enjoy your days who love you unconditionally. 

His Eyes Made Me Fall in Love Again

I was confused from past few days about our friendship or rather should I say our relationship. It was a phase where I was still exploring that are we just best friends or more than it. He was my human diary where everyday I use to write my secrets but this time I was not able to write that I started loving him. Our evening walks were no more the same. His gestures everyday were hinting me that whether he likes me or not?

One night, I was talking to my roommate and suddenly I asked her about him. She directly said,"He likes you". Till that time I felt that I was the only one who felt this but no even my roomie said the same. I said to her,"I will wait for the day when he says something regarding this but till that moment, I will wait". But still who actually wanted to wait for his reply. I decided, time to pull out each and every thought which he has hidden.

We both were sitting in canteen and after having our supper, I asked him," Is there something which you want to say to me?" He replied, "No". Inner me, the answer did not satisfy my question. I again pinched him and asked,"We are best friends and I share everything with you. If you want to tell something or say, please tell." This time the reply was not the same as earlier. He said," I am scared to tell and feel that I will loose something precious." I was blushing but still I controlled. Later on the topic was changed. We started clicking our pictures. At one picture of ours, he again and again said this is the most beautiful picture. I uploaded that on my social account and later on after few minutes, I saw his comment with blue hearts and written "U". I was going back to my hostel irate and he followed me back.

I asked him again,"Am I thinking the same which you want to say?" He said," I told you, I am scared." Heading towards to my hostel he held my hand and said looking into my eyes,"In our religion, we are not allowed to see in any other woman's  eyes but I still look into your eyes to answer you." That was enough for me what he did. I was in love with him but this time I felt the spiritual intimacy with him. I saw his love for me deep hidden in his eyes.Truly said when a boy is in love you can see in his eyes. It was that day when I saw my today, tomorrow and my future for the rest of my life.

REDISCOVERING HER INDIVIDUALITY

She was in second standard, when she took her first step to stop domestic violence which was happening with her mother. At that time, the small kid didn’t even know what domestic violence is but she stood in front of the 5’8 man and pushed him against the wall. She held her mother’s hand and went to her grandmother’s house, leaving her father alone. She took the first step towards her individuality.

A new chapter was introduced in the class on Jainism and Buddhism. Students understood about her religion that she is a member of one of the two principal sects of Jainism and male ascetic members of this sect do not wear clothes. When asked from her, from which sects she belongs to, she answered,” I am a jain-digambar girl.” Her classmates after the school got over, in order to tease her on the basis of religion, asked her to remove her clothes. When she was 12 years old, she was been bullied by her classmates but she did not fear. She thrashed one of the boys with brick to save herself from bullying.

By the age of 15, she with the support of her mother opened an NGO and started helping the kids of age 1- 10 years old. She discovered her unconditional love for kids while enjoying motherhood with those kids. It was all this that she was learning every day and how to cope up with difficulties. After completing her 12^th, she started working with many social activists and worked on campaigns for kids and women. Despite of not getting any support this time from her family, she moved on, rumbling her individuality.

While pursuing her graduation, her mother met an accident. Instead of finding help from others, she took her own steps and did each and everything to care of her mother. On the path of becoming a strong independent woman, she learnt how to withstand and absorb pain of life. She even lived in an abusive relationship with a person but instead of living in that pain, she fought and moved out from the negativism of life. She with her smile moved on and on and today she is a successful entrepreneur, running 10 NGO and helping others to achieve the best in life.

She discovered her individuality and it’s important for every woman to learn how to be a beacon in the stormy days of life and understand the deeper life experiences. At the end one has to be the one that she wants to become not what the world wants. It requires courage to stand alone and fight against the difficulties. Embrace your individuality.

“Which Mazhab / Religion / Dharma taught this?”

Christianity: Jesus always showed the greatest esteem and the greatest respect for woman, for every woman, and in particular ,he was sensitive to female suffering. Going beyond the social and religious barriers of the time, Jesus reestablished woman in her full dignity as a human person before God and before men ... Christ’s way of acting, the Gospel of his words and deeds, is a consistent protest against whatever offends the dignity of women.

Islam: “And among His signs is this: that He created mates for you from yourselves that you may find rest and peace of mind in them, and He ordained between you love and mercy. Certainly, herein indeed are signs for people who reflect.” (Quran 30:21)

Hinduism: The strongest presence of the divine feminine among major world religions, from ancient times to the present. The goddess is viewed as central in Shakti and Saiva Hindu traditions.

Sikhism: The founder of Sikhism, Guru Nanak, reportedly said in 1499 that "[it] is a woman who keeps the race going" and that we should not "consider woman cursed and condemned, [when] from woman are born leaders and kings.

Judaism: According to traditional Judaism, women are endowed with a greater degree of “binah” (intuition, understanding, intelligence) than men.

Jainism: Jainism is a religion of religious equality, devoted to recognizing the rights of all living creatures.

I tried to find in almost each and every religion which says that women are born to get disrespect. They are the creatures on the planet that one can brutally kill or rape. Not a single holy book says this. Then how can one on the basis of religion rape an 8 year old girl or rather I should say you are trying to hide your animalism in the name of religion. Even Ravan did not touch Sita without her permission. Lucky she was that she was kidnapped by Ravan and not by the bhakts of Ram.

We are not allowed to have strong laws, we are not allowed to get safety and we are not allowed to get proper education. Then what are we up to, just to lick your shit off. I always felt that the 90’s generation should be finished off as soon as possible because this orthodox thinking is there but I was proven wrong when I saw in a video, a 12 year old Haryana boy said that in rape cases the fault  is of girls. They wear jeans and so boys get attracted. It’s the fault of victim. A 75 year old man says that once girl crosses the age of 15-16 and the rape happens, it’s not a rape, it’s her choice. The teachings of such people are coming into next generation and there is no stop.

My question goes that if wearing of jeans seduces men and makes them rape a woman, how they get seduced from 5-10 years old girls. These rascals are not even leaving new born baby girls. What the law is expecting, I have no clue. I have decided that if anyone tries to touch me without my permission, I will chop his hands because I can’t sit back and watch a candle march for me. I will take my own steps when law cannot support me. I don’t want my body to be taken to a foreign country where I should take my last breath.

The voices which has been raised through social media, you even delete that. A common man if comes up on the road to fight, you go for lathi charge. Are you seriously coward or you don’t have the guts to face? It’s enough!! High time dear government either you take steps or we will do in our own way.

THE BROKEN FRAME – AN UNOFFICIAL PROPOSAL

They use to walk together in the dusk and had long conversations, sometimes about family, career or ex relationships. They were best friends. Both knew each other well but had no clue that they are in love with each other. The two weirdos use to express each and everything to each other but were not able to correspond about their hearts. If anyone of the two was not talking, the other one use to get stressed. Talking for hours and not getting bored, they both never let each other go. Already the soul mates walked into each other’s heart. It was the time to say the feelings.

One evening they went down for their habitual evening walk after the classes. Both were talking to each other. Suddenly the boy started annoying the girl by singing stupid songs. She always got irritated whenever he started with some stupid stuff. When she use to get aggravated, she snatched his hair. He was tall and she –“short”. So standing on the sidewalk pavement, she pulled his hair. The fight went on. He continued to infuriate her and she went on beating and pulling his hair. Finally they reached the mess and sat there.  Both were now tired. They met their senior there and the boy started there with his senior exasperating her. Now she was highly upset and in anger she punched in his face and something went wrong. The specs were broken.

She got anxious of about what she had done. She started blaming herself that a small piece of glass could have gone into his eye. The boy saw that she was perturbed. He was consoling her, nothing went wrong, and everything is fine. He has spare set of specs but she was not getting calm. She held his hand and took him to his hostel. On each and every step she was telling him that now there is staircase or whatever that was coming during the path as his vision was blurred. There in his hostel she was requesting his friends that to please take him to his room but he was explaining again that he can go.

He went back to his room and she left for her hostel and started crying. After few minutes she got a video call from him. She saw his spare specs and said fine and finished the call. Again she got a voice call from him and asked her to stop crying, consoling her by saying nothing happened to him. She was again and again saying what if anything went wrong and he got harmed because of her. But the boy said nothing happened thankfully and while consoling her said if anything had gone wrong she had to marry him. Instead of reverting back negatively, she sobbing again and again said if that would have happened she would have married him. Unofficially both proposed each other. The boy smiled as anyhow what he wished for he got that unofficially. The love was unsaid till now but the broken frame said everything, leaving the guess which was unsaid till now.

SHE GIFTED HIM THE PITAPAT OF LITTLE FEET

Currently she is enjoying the beautiful moments with her love. They both were head over heels for each other since the day they proposed. Every day a new surprise was planned for each other. Her only wish was to fulfill all his dreams and give their relationship the best. One day while they were conversing regarding their future plans. Suddenly the boy said I want you to be the mother of my kids in future.  The girl was blushing. She said that we’ll see in the future but deep inside she knew just because of different religion of which they belong to, the possibility of living together as husband and wife was difficult and then later on the topic was changed.

This happened most of the time that the boy use to say that again and again and she replied just by giving him a smile, said that we’ll see in the future what is destined. She wanted to fulfill her man’s dream. Presently both were completing their post graduation. Therefore, the dream which her love wished was not possible. But as it said nothing is impossible in life. If you try to get anything in life one day or the other you will achieve it. The same happened with her.

While pursuing her post graduation she was also working with a care home. One evening she got a call from the nursery nurse. A normal conversation was going on between them. How the studies are going and here in the care home kids misses her a lot. After a while the nurse told that we have one new born baby girl in our home. Somebody left her near their house. The girl asked about the child’s health from the nurse and after some more discussions went on about the child and the conversation was over. After the call she began to complete her project but something got struck in her mind. She thought why not give the child her boyfriend’s name. She won’t adopt the child right now but once she capable of she will. She called back and asked the nurse what name you have given to the child. The nurse replied we haven’t given till now but the kids of the orphanage call her “Guddo”.  She requested the nurse to keep the child’s name as “Navya Sayed”. The nurse didn’t know why she wanted this but after having a word with the senior staff, they decided for the same.

Finally she did what her love wanted. The name that she gave to the child was also the combination of her and her boyfriend’s name. It was the time to surprise him that finally unofficially but he is a father now. They were sitting in the canteen one evening. She started off and told about what had happened and finally declared that love , you are now unofficially a father and we have a daughter now. One had to see his face red – blushing. He was happy and they both celebrated and welcome their kid by having pastries. Yes the child and her parents were in two different cities but somewhere their souls were attached. At the end she could sense the happiness of her love and finally she gifted him the pita pat of little feet.

Her mood swings - a whiplash for him

By every morning, sharp 8:30 a.m., she receives a call from him. Every day the same questions but the love and care from him always escalate for her. Till the time she does not reach her office, they continue to talk on call. His only concern why the hell you don’t eat your breakfast and her only reply was not in a mood. But still without screaming on her, he replies with all his affection that you must have anything in the breakfast. You are in a new city; no one will help you out if your health goes wrong. But her mood swings never support her behavior. Just because she had a fight with someone or her work was not considered in her office, her anger comes out and she comes out in a different manner with him. He still listens to her quietly.

That morning the same happened and after a small conversation she rejected the call. Every day she feels bad about what her mood swings are doing to her relationship. Every day she thanks to God for giving her a man who handles her tantrums so beautifully but also asks God how to control her anger. She remained silent for few minutes and was waiting for her cab. Next to her a stout- short girl was standing who looked ferocious. Someone called Akshita! That stout-short girl looked at her left side. She understood that the girl who was looking so irate, her name is Akshita. She started looking her and her moves.

Akshita was looking towards to a boy who was waiting for her on his bike. He was smiling looking at her but Akshita remained the same. Akshita looking at the boy pointed him to bring his bike where she was standing. The boy asked her to come there but Akshita was not ready to listen and looked straight as if she is ignoring him. The girl was watching what that boy will do so that Akshita comes there. She saw that the boy took his bike and made his bike on stand. He sat down there on the road with his helmet in his hand and was looking towards Akshita.

She moved her head and waited for Akshita’s move. Suddenly Akshita looked at the boy and watching him sitting down on the road and smiling towards her, she started laughing. She went there and sat down on his bike and left.  There she stood smiling at what happened. She was all calm till now and remembered her love. Her love did somewhat the same things for her, all the possible attempts to make her smile and when he sees her smiling, his mind use to get calm, he smiles and kisses her forehead.  Her cab came and she called her back. The conversation again started till she reached her office but now with a cheerful mood.

Sometimes it happens that your partner is going from a bad phase and doesn’t know how to react. It’s your responsibility that you try to understand and make things better. If both the person react in the same manner things will be ruined up. The way she reacted made her love felt bad but he never made things go wrong. Both tried to console each other. That’s how the swing of relationship goes.  Enjoy the frame of the swing and let it go for the spin. Follow every change of path with the time and preeminence. That’s what the beauty of relationship is. She was lucky that she met such a wonderful man and loved her so much. Don’t lose these magnificent people. You never know when just because of small stones you lose some real jewels.

CLASS 10 - HINDI HORIZON

The students started with the question answers of chapter - WORSHIP IN NAUBAKHAKHANA. They got stuck in question 2 – Why is Bismillah Khan marked as the central character of Mangalhvani? The teacher explained,”Bismillah Khan practiced constant clarinet for eighty years. True love due to such veneration for the clarinet and true tone, they became their ineffaceable identities. Therefore they have been called as the leading role of Mangalhvani of Shehnai.” Where today students of class 10 are studying as him as a chapter, on his 102^nd birth anniversary, Ustad Bismillah Khan’s majestic playing of clarinet is been missed.

He was a symbol of mixed cultures who not only use to play as much as clarinet in mosques but also with much fun in temples. He was an exclusive worshipper of art. Born on March 21, 1916 in Bhirung Raut Ki Gali, Ustad Bismillah Khan is an emanation of composing the most beautiful melodies. If you read about the classification of Indian instruments and come across the vocals produced by blowing, the instrument which first comes is flute and in the metonym, you will find Ustad Bismillah Khan as one of synonyms of it.

 He started playing in public when he was 14 years old. Just because of his dedication and riyaz, Shehnai became one of the most popular instruments of India for a long time.

He is the recipient of Sangeet natak akademi award (1956), President Award by President Dr. Rajendra Prasad (1956), Padamshri (1961), Shehnai Chakravanti Samman (1963), Tansen Award (1965), Padma Bhushan (1968), Soviet Land Nehru Award (1976), Padma Vibhushan (1980), Iraq’s Talar Maoshiki Award(1992), Yash Bharati Award(1994), Sangeet  Natak Akademi Fellowship (1994), Rameshwar Degree awarded by Swaraj Sangharsh , Gupta awards(2000) and Bharat Ratna (2001).

Today, Google paid tribute by creating a doodle on him. Sincere thanks to Google for this for letting us remind one of the greatest artists. Currently Symbols of Sanjhi Culture – Ustad Bismillah are carrying out the legacy and promoting his work. Their motive is to fill the emptiness of their clarinet to the masses and also fill the vaccum that has come after Ustad Bismillah’s departure.

Bismillah sahab’s last wish was to pay tribute to the martyrs by performing at India Gate but it was not fulfilled. The pioneer of Shehnai vadak and his melodies are always missed and hope that once again the Ustad Bismillah’s flute is revived again by someone and his last wish gets fulfilled.

HER WISH TO LIVE EVERY SECOND WITH HIM

The most beautiful day of her life was when her man achieved the captaincy. She was happy for him because what she dreamt became true. She could see her man’s happiness. He was the only deserving candidate in her eyes to get the post.  Tears rolled over her cheeks when she saw him holding the batch and his smiling face. He didn’t notice how happy his girl is to see him achieving. While wiping her tears a thought came over her mind and got stuck. She was trying to remove it but wasn’t, as the thought was a bitter truth. She was in relationship with a person with whom she wished to live forever but the society did not wished the same. The day they both proposed each other, they promised each other that till the time they are here in this college, they will make each and every day beautiful and memorable. Both loved their work and were a part of same coterie. That night when he was declared as the head honcho of the clan, she realized one thing that as much he loved her, the same way he loved his faction. There stood her insecurity, her fear of losing his attention and time.


Her boyfriend covenanted her that he would manage each and everything properly. She need not to worry but still that fear got stuck. Things were changed from that day. She started hating things related to that association. Anytime she would hear anything linked with it from him, she use to start yelling. They both had fights on that. He thought that his girl was not happy with the allocation of positions but the reality was she was not happy with the time he gave to that confederacy. It was her only urge now that she wished to live every second of her life with him.

Time was running out every day. She knew that her love did not like her reactions on the topic of covenant. She tried to push herself back and work in the same manner what she use to do in the past but the fear remained same. Sometimes the boy thought that she might wish to get the leadership but nothing was like that. She was working hard for his happiness. She tried to behave in the same manner the way she was in past but was not happy. Just for his sake of happiness, she was doing because she always wanted him to be happy and peaceful but her peace was shattered. Few months were left and they both knew what is going to happen at the end – separation. After every fight she use to say sorry because she knew that he was not feeling good. Her insecurities were increasing but her love remained the same. Just because she only craved for his love she was not be able to act in the same way. Her only message to her man was that everything is same just she yearn for his time, for every second. 

CURLEW – IN A SPOT OF BOTHER

They spend their frost in coastal areas. One can find them on mudflats and estuaries in large flocks. In summer, they migrate to their breeding grounds but it appears that on the European red list, they are considered to be “susceptible”. They are in spot of bother – they are curlew birds. According to The Economic Times, there are number of bird species in the world soars to 18000.  If we examine a random sample of bird species approximately 25% are in extinction. The question is - are we really saving our fauna?

Curlew belongs to cluster of birds known as “waders” for the reason that they spend parts of their life wading in shallow waters. They were the most widespread kind  in Britain, breeding in  marshes and upland but as compared to past 20 years they are now partially in number. If no conservation actions are taken up, then about 2025 the breed will completely extinct. The reasons behind the extinction of this species is said to be low breeding success, breeding habitat loss, increase in nest and chick predation and agriculture nest damages. To start avoiding the damages it’s important to understand the problem from ground level.

A study reveals that from 1996-2006, over 70% of the nests were not able to give forth a single chick and the chicks which were hatched, only half of them survived. To promote recovery and better breeding success, it’s of great essence to work upon the factors which chains sustainable escalation. Due to an increase in application of fertilizers and chemicals, the breeding habitats of curlew have been spoiled. Thus one needs to bring changes in the farmer’s practices so that one can protect the homes of these birds. Another menace to this subject is predation.  A research explains 16% to 65% of roosts have been pillaged. Next comes is the agriculture destruction. Through agriculture machinery the destruction of their birdhouse is common as most of the nests of curlew are on ground.

Knowing about curlews, the only question for which I wish an answer from you is will you take any measures to save our fauna or this article will just remain another document. The RSPB along with the UK’s statutory nature conservation agency have started working to save the curlews. They are working on the recovery programme of curlews. Even you can be a part of it. Visit the sites and subscribe and make one move to save the charismatic nature and wildlife.

In The Midst of Rain, She Remembered Her Love – HER CIVIL ENGINEER

It was 5 p.m.; she left her office and was going back to her home. On her way she was enjoying the breeze before the rain. After few minutes the drizzle started. She was watching the rain drops hitting the side windows of the car. Scrolling her love’s pictures on her mobile and feeling the weather, she was missing him. It was already a period, she didn’t meet him. The lovingness of being in his arms was the major missing for her. New city and her first rain experience without him made difficult for her to stop thinking about him.

The driver left her nearby a petrol pump from where she had to walk 100 meters to reach her home. While walking, she was looking down towards the slide lanes of the road accumulated with rain water. She remembered her conversation with him. If you are in love with a civil engineer you can easily make out that before you being in his life, his first and last love is cement, bricks, buildings and engineering concepts. The most beautiful memories an engineer can have is his love for engineering and his engineering days.  She was use to listen all the concepts and stories of her engineer. He was happy in explaining them to her and she was happy in listening to him.  That evening she was sitting beside him and he was grilling the engineers who constructed that road. He was again and again telling her that they had made  mistakes while construction. People don’t know how to work properly. She was listening to him and consoling him fine it happens. As usual for her, she knew in a short span she might be learning some new concepts. She always felt with him as if she has completed her half engineering and only practical sessions are left.

Finally he started off with his lecture and the question- answer session. Do you know how the leveling of the surface is done? As usual she was a fresher in this field learning slowly, she said a no. He explained, “This is screeding. It’s a concrete used to form a level surface. To encase under floor heating pipes screeding is done. The screed mixture is made up of cement and water.” Do you know a standard ratio is maintained while designing? What happens to a student when he or she does not know what to answer, you find a poker face. Same happened with her no answer and a blank face waiting for him to answer his question. The ratio of 1:4 is maintained for mix design. Next question- Have you ever thought how this rainwater on roads goes to side lanes and does not get accumulated? Answer was just check the gradual downward slope from the center of a road to each side of it. This is camber. Already she was listening to him but wanted to stop. While he was speaking she moved her face towards her and kissed. Time to shut his mouth, by her kisses.

While rewinding her memories, suddenly she realized the rain had stopped and she reached her home. It was the time to call her love and eat his mind by telling him with what she had done in her office.

End of Perspicacious thinking – “THE STEPHEN HAWKING”

Lives in the universe (1996); The beginning of time (1996); Does God play dice (1999); Space and Time Warps (1999); Godel and the End of Physics (2002); The Origin of the Universe (2005); Into a Black Hole (2008) – all are the collection of Professor Hawking’s public lectures. 14^th March, 2018 – the day marks the death of an inspiration and a great rational scientist none other than “THE STEPHEN HAWKING”. The man behind “The Brief History of Time”, on this day died peacefully at his home. Here is a journey and his major contributions to the world which shall be lived for many years.

ABOUT HAWKING

The renowned physicist and ambassador of science was born on January 8, 1942 in Oxford, England. The most astonishing part of his life is that Hawking wished to pursue mathematics but as University College did not offer this subject, so he decided to take physics. At the age of 11, he was awarded his first class honors degree in natural science. In 1962, he did his research in cosmology. By the year 1965, he completed his PhD with his thesis named “Properties of Expanded Universe”. At Gonville and Caius College, he first became a research canvasser and later on a fellow for Distinction in Science, by the year 1969. As a research assistant in 1973, he published his first academic book – “The Large Scale Structure of Space-Time”.

During 1974, he was elected as a member of the Royal Society and Sherman Fairchild Distinguished Scholar at California Institute of Technology. 1975, he became a reader in Gravitational Physics at DAMPT and in his career progression lead to a professor of gravitational physics in 1977. He also held the post of Lucasian Professor of Mathematics for a period from 1979- 2009. The man who sought to explain some of the most convoluted questions in life, with Roger Penrose showed that Einstein’s general theory of relativity oblique space and time would have a commencement in the Big Bang theory and closing stages in Black holes.

HIS PUBLICATIONS

From the Properties to expanding universe and many more, here are few of his major works:

• ·         Occurrence of singularities in open universes.
• ·         On the Hoyle-Narlikar theory of gravitation.
• ·         Singularities and the geometry of space-time. 
• ·         Helium production in anisotropic big bang universes.
• ·         Perturbations of an expanding universe. 
• ·         The occurrence of singularities in cosmology. III. Causality and singularities. 
• ·         The Singularities of gravitational collapse and cosmology. 
• ·         Gravitational radiation from colliding black holes. 
• ·         Energy and angular momentum flow into a black hole.
• ·         Euclidean Quantum Gravity.
• ·         The Propagation of Particles in Space-time Foam.
• ·         Yang-mills Instantons and the S Matrix.
• ·         Interacting Quantum Fields around a Black Hole.
• ·         The Development of Irregularities in a Single Bubble Inflationary Universe.
• ·         Euclidean Approach to the Inflationary Universe. 
• ·         Nontrivial Topologies in Quantum Gravity.
• ·         Wormholes and non simply connected manifolds.
• ·         Super symmetric Bianchi models and the square root of the Wheeler-DeWitt equation.
• ·         Evaporation of cosmological black holes.
• ·         The Conformal BMS Group.
• ·         A Smooth Exit from Eternal Inflation.

BOOKS

• ·         My Brief History
• ·         The Grand Design
• ·         A Brief History Of Time
• ·         A Briefer History Of Time
• ·         Black Holes : The Reith Lectures
• ·         George and the Blue Moon
• ·         George’s Cosmic Treasure Hunt
• ·         George and The Unbreakable Code
• ·         George and The Big Bang
• ·         George’s Secret Key to the Universe
• ·         The Universe in the Nutshell
• ·         Black holes and Baby Universes
• ·         On the shoulders of giants
• ·         God created the Integers

RECOGNITION EARNED BY HIM

As said by him, “Remember to look up at the stars and not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious and however difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”In spite of diagnosed by Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis, Stephen made his mark on this world by his work.  In 1966 he won the Adams Prize for his essay 'Singularities and the Geometry of Space-time'. He achieved in 1975 – The Eddington Medal, 1976 - Hughes Medal and Dannie Heinemann Prize for Mathematical Physics, 1978-79 – The Albert Einstein Award, 1985- Gold Medal of the Royal Astronomical Society, 1987- Dirac Medal of the Institute of Physics, 1988 – The Wolf Prize in Physics, 1989 - Prince of Asturias Award for Concord, 2006 – Copley Medal, 2008 – Fonseca Prize, 2009 – Presidential Medal Of Freedom and 2013 - Special Fundamental Physics Prize.

One cannot summarize all his contributions but whatever we get to learn from him is more than a small quotient. Truly he was one of the greatest thinkers and he inspired by his courage as well as his words. Not only his work but his wit and humor were also the reasons, we will remember him. Rest in Peace legend.