His Eyes Made Me Fall in Love Again

I was confused from past few days about our friendship or rather should I say our relationship. It was a phase where I was still exploring that are we just best friends or more than it. He was my human diary where everyday I use to write my secrets but this time I was not able to write that I started loving him. Our evening walks were no more the same. His gestures everyday were hinting me that whether he likes me or not?

One night, I was talking to my roommate and suddenly I asked her about him. She directly said,"He likes you". Till that time I felt that I was the only one who felt this but no even my roomie said the same. I said to her,"I will wait for the day when he says something regarding this but till that moment, I will wait". But still who actually wanted to wait for his reply. I decided, time to pull out each and every thought which he has hidden.

We both were sitting in canteen and after having our supper, I asked him," Is there something which you want to say to me?" He replied, "No". Inner me, the answer did not satisfy my question. I again pinched him and asked,"We are best friends and I share everything with you. If you want to tell something or say, please tell." This time the reply was not the same as earlier. He said," I am scared to tell and feel that I will loose something precious." I was blushing but still I controlled. Later on the topic was changed. We started clicking our pictures. At one picture of ours, he again and again said this is the most beautiful picture. I uploaded that on my social account and later on after few minutes, I saw his comment with blue hearts and written "U". I was going back to my hostel irate and he followed me back.

I asked him again,"Am I thinking the same which you want to say?" He said," I told you, I am scared." Heading towards to my hostel he held my hand and said looking into my eyes,"In our religion, we are not allowed to see in any other woman's  eyes but I still look into your eyes to answer you." That was enough for me what he did. I was in love with him but this time I felt the spiritual intimacy with him. I saw his love for me deep hidden in his eyes.Truly said when a boy is in love you can see in his eyes. It was that day when I saw my today, tomorrow and my future for the rest of my life.

REDISCOVERING HER INDIVIDUALITY

She was in second standard, when she took her first step to stop domestic violence which was happening with her mother. At that time, the small kid didn’t even know what domestic violence is but she stood in front of the 5’8 man and pushed him against the wall. She held her mother’s hand and went to her grandmother’s house, leaving her father alone. She took the first step towards her individuality.

A new chapter was introduced in the class on Jainism and Buddhism. Students understood about her religion that she is a member of one of the two principal sects of Jainism and male ascetic members of this sect do not wear clothes. When asked from her, from which sects she belongs to, she answered,” I am a jain-digambar girl.” Her classmates after the school got over, in order to tease her on the basis of religion, asked her to remove her clothes. When she was 12 years old, she was been bullied by her classmates but she did not fear. She thrashed one of the boys with brick to save herself from bullying.

By the age of 15, she with the support of her mother opened an NGO and started helping the kids of age 1- 10 years old. She discovered her unconditional love for kids while enjoying motherhood with those kids. It was all this that she was learning every day and how to cope up with difficulties. After completing her 12^th, she started working with many social activists and worked on campaigns for kids and women. Despite of not getting any support this time from her family, she moved on, rumbling her individuality.

While pursuing her graduation, her mother met an accident. Instead of finding help from others, she took her own steps and did each and everything to care of her mother. On the path of becoming a strong independent woman, she learnt how to withstand and absorb pain of life. She even lived in an abusive relationship with a person but instead of living in that pain, she fought and moved out from the negativism of life. She with her smile moved on and on and today she is a successful entrepreneur, running 10 NGO and helping others to achieve the best in life.

She discovered her individuality and it’s important for every woman to learn how to be a beacon in the stormy days of life and understand the deeper life experiences. At the end one has to be the one that she wants to become not what the world wants. It requires courage to stand alone and fight against the difficulties. Embrace your individuality.

“Which Mazhab / Religion / Dharma taught this?”

Christianity: Jesus always showed the greatest esteem and the greatest respect for woman, for every woman, and in particular ,he was sensitive to female suffering. Going beyond the social and religious barriers of the time, Jesus reestablished woman in her full dignity as a human person before God and before men ... Christ’s way of acting, the Gospel of his words and deeds, is a consistent protest against whatever offends the dignity of women.

Islam: “And among His signs is this: that He created mates for you from yourselves that you may find rest and peace of mind in them, and He ordained between you love and mercy. Certainly, herein indeed are signs for people who reflect.” (Quran 30:21)

Hinduism: The strongest presence of the divine feminine among major world religions, from ancient times to the present. The goddess is viewed as central in Shakti and Saiva Hindu traditions.

Sikhism: The founder of Sikhism, Guru Nanak, reportedly said in 1499 that "[it] is a woman who keeps the race going" and that we should not "consider woman cursed and condemned, [when] from woman are born leaders and kings.

Judaism: According to traditional Judaism, women are endowed with a greater degree of “binah” (intuition, understanding, intelligence) than men.

Jainism: Jainism is a religion of religious equality, devoted to recognizing the rights of all living creatures.

I tried to find in almost each and every religion which says that women are born to get disrespect. They are the creatures on the planet that one can brutally kill or rape. Not a single holy book says this. Then how can one on the basis of religion rape an 8 year old girl or rather I should say you are trying to hide your animalism in the name of religion. Even Ravan did not touch Sita without her permission. Lucky she was that she was kidnapped by Ravan and not by the bhakts of Ram.

We are not allowed to have strong laws, we are not allowed to get safety and we are not allowed to get proper education. Then what are we up to, just to lick your shit off. I always felt that the 90’s generation should be finished off as soon as possible because this orthodox thinking is there but I was proven wrong when I saw in a video, a 12 year old Haryana boy said that in rape cases the fault  is of girls. They wear jeans and so boys get attracted. It’s the fault of victim. A 75 year old man says that once girl crosses the age of 15-16 and the rape happens, it’s not a rape, it’s her choice. The teachings of such people are coming into next generation and there is no stop.

My question goes that if wearing of jeans seduces men and makes them rape a woman, how they get seduced from 5-10 years old girls. These rascals are not even leaving new born baby girls. What the law is expecting, I have no clue. I have decided that if anyone tries to touch me without my permission, I will chop his hands because I can’t sit back and watch a candle march for me. I will take my own steps when law cannot support me. I don’t want my body to be taken to a foreign country where I should take my last breath.

The voices which has been raised through social media, you even delete that. A common man if comes up on the road to fight, you go for lathi charge. Are you seriously coward or you don’t have the guts to face? It’s enough!! High time dear government either you take steps or we will do in our own way.